Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Many more to come.

Little Misery

Sad little misery
Sitting in the tree
Wishing my life
Would be kinder to me

Sick of the worry
Tired of the stress
Fed up with the fight
Disgusted at the mess

Had it with tears
I want to dry my eye
See bright blue
Not black clouded sky

Try to think positive
Didn’t last too long
So I’ll just sit here
And sing my sad song



Meant To Be What

I can see your smile
The glare of your teeth
My heart is having trouble
Hiding the love underneath

I hear your words sound
I think of all our memory
All we had planned
Has suddenly slipped away from me

I had our picture
We were so happy and content
Now those days are lost
Happiness came and went

I feel your arms around me
I feel you in all I do
I could of lived in your forever
If meant to be were actually true



My Broken Promise

I once made a promise
To never let my heart stray
I guess I broke that promise
When I let you walk away

When truth came to love
My heart always spoke true
That was up until now
When I let go of holding you

My gut always knew
Even if my words were deceiving
Deep down I dreamed of meant to be
Though I said I stopped believing

I broke my first promise
Loyalty to happiness has fallen apart
Walking away from you is the first time
I haven’t followed my heart



Sinful Sensation

I weep
Into my pillow
Float in the wind
Like a soft willow

I scream
Into the air
Dance in the eyes
Of your admiring stare

I cling to
Fantasy I’m in
Swarm my body
Into your skin

I long for you
Sink in desperation
Run in your fields
Of sinned sensation




I’m The Villain

I’m the villain
Mean, nasty, and cold
Love to sling my word
No insult too old

I’m too emotional
Reminded every day
Any reason to cry
Is what you always say

I speak nonsense
No point to my word
Talk about nothing
That’s why I wasn’t heard

I’m the bad one
Hate comes so easily
Grudges last forever
See the villain in me



His View

If this is it
Please let me know
If this love has faded
I’ll let you go

I wont call you
Your numbers will fade
I’ll try to forget
All plans we made

I wont look for you
Wherever my feet take me
And when you appear
I’ll pretend I don’t see

I’ll not think of you
I’ll have to sleep constantly
But even in my dreams
Our love still haunts me


His Pain Is In You

I see your face
I see my pain
The ongoing stress
My daily strain

I hear your words
I see his agony
Then I let your hands
Lay on me

I smell your cologne
I’m taken to that place
Where he lay alone
Fight leaving his face

I feel your skin
I feel his misery
Pain is too close
I have to set it free



In Love With You

Lost
Angry
Lonely
Confused

Broken
Torn
Mistreated
Abused

Sad
Crying
Pushed
Shoved

Betrayed
Afraid
Alone
Loved




I Love You

I’ll think of you often
The love for you will make me
But it’s time to move on
Return to my previous misery

I had a taste of happiness
I’ll admit it was from you
Life has a way of turning upside down
The fight was too hard to go through

I think about the what ifs
Maybe time would of changed it all
Or maybe something else would of happened
Causing our love to fall

I don’t deny there’ love
My heart is full of you
Life wanted us separated
I can say I loved happiness through you




To My Love Ricky

I already miss you
With only the words said
Without you to curl up with
I’ll never peacefully lay my head

I already long for you
At just the thought of empty air
Hell is what comes to mind
At the thought you wont be there

I already ache for you
Just thinking it is the end
I’m not only losing love
But my only best friend

I’m already over you
Or so my words say
I wish simple words
Could make this love go away



Mommy’s Sorry Tyler

I feel helpless
Watching you hurt
The only thing I can do
Is tear soak my sweatshirt

I can’t life the pain
Dull the agony
All I can do is hold your hand
While you scream in misery

Your eyes wail in pain
Your heart says fix me
My heart breaks in two
As you scream mommy

I want to take my hand
Ease the pain you feel
I wish for you that my touch
Had the power to heal



Hard Landing

Seen the power
Love can produce
Now I have to suffer
And let it loose

Spend my day lonely
Wishing it was mine
Drowning my sorrows
In your favorite wine

Float in the memories
We made in a year
Go back to the misery
And the daily tear

They say it is better to love
Than not to love at all
I’d say I’d rather not know
How hard love can fall




Scream

Do you hear me?
I’m screaming for you
Do you want to ignore me?
Fancy living bring deaf ear
I’m not your type
Rings in our head
It was enough to blare
And leave me stranded here
Now imagine my touch
Someone else in me
Does your rich heart
Hear me scream



Tell Me Ricky

Tell me
You see the light
There’s reason
To still fight

Tell me
It’s okay
There’ll soon be
Healthy day

Tell me
You can fix it
So my heart
Wont quit

Tell me
You see my agony
Make it all better
For my baby



Me Too

I hate you
I hate you too
I’ll forget you
I will too
I wont love you
Neither will I
I wont drop tears
I don’t cry
I’ll move on
And I will too
I’ll find better
Someone better than you
I never…
You never what?
I was never happy…
Until you…
Me too



Love

I love you
Lost you
Held you
Dropped you

You saved me
Carried me
Left me
Hated me

I hid you
Breathed you
Forgot you
Remembered you

You took me
Stole me
Shattered me
Loved me



You Broke Me

See the crack?
You left from your hit
See the pain
That forces me to quit

Do you hear weakness?
You lay upon me
Hear strained heart
Begging for mercy

Do you smell fear?
You instilled in my heart
Smell the tension
Ripping me apart

Do you feel sadness?
When you think of me
Feel the heartache
You left permanently



Bliss With You

I want to sing
With the birds
Stand with the flowers
Cruise with the clouds
Float in all the colors
Of the rainbow bright
Breathe with the wind
So I can feel the bliss
Your love once
Put me in



Just Cry

Take my hand
It’s okay to cry
I’ll absorb your tears
Dab your crying eye

I’ll hold you
The long, sad night
I’ll let you be weak
Let loose of the fight

I’ll prop you up
So you can breathe deep
Whisper soothing words
When you fall into your weep

I’ll kiss your forehead
Look you in the eye
Tell you I’ll catch the tears
If you just let yourself cry



Breathe

I reach out for you
In the midnight blue

You’re what I dream about
When the lights go out

You’re what I cling to
When fear fights through

You’re whom I long for
When I’m behind empty door

You’re what I need
To stop my painful bleed

You’re all I want to see
You breathe the life into me



Black Moon

The night is cold
Brisk at best
Dark clouds rolling
Won’t let me rest

I can hear the breeze
Cracking branches off tree
I can feel the wind’s anger
Slapping the face of me

The moon is black
The outline recedes
Rays cut like a knife
Causing my tragic heart bleeds

The stares shoot lightning
It severs my skin
I’m dragged kicking and screaming
Through the nightmare I’m in



Helpless TyTy

I see your tears
Drop down your face
I feel helpless
All I have is my embrace

I can hear your screams
Blasted in agony
I feel helpless
You find no comfort in me

I can smell the fear
Boiled up in your chest
I feel so helpless
I can’t help you rest

I can feel your weak body
Struggle though weary
I feel helpless
A helpless mommy