| Peg Kay \\ 4/20/2005 |
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Friday, April 15, 2005
Dear Ty Ty
Dearest Tyler
These feelings are for you
Mommy is scared
words are all I have to run to
I'm scared to lose you
Scared I'll forget your cries
lose the picture
of your big beautiful eyes
Fear overwhelms me
will there always be your touch
will I always feel the warmth
from your hand clutch
I want to be able to run to you
pull you against my chest
feel your strong heartbeat
and feel truly blessed
I never want to forget
the smile on your face
I'm not happy with only pictures
taking your place
I dread the what if's
don't want to ask why
I don't want to see your empty bed
while your brothers watch me cry
I want to kiss three boys
as I tuck you into bed
I don't want to pace all night
regretting all that wasn't said
I want to watch you step on to grass
See the wind ruffle your hair
Watch you squint your eyes
as you stand in the sun glare
I want to hug you Tyler
not a stone in a dark cemetery
I'm so scared
Love mommy
| Peg Kay \\ 4/15/2005 |
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