Princessbaby's Poem Palace

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

My Star, Mommy
(Ty Ty)

No more needles
the pain is gone
I know you ache
but I know you'll let me live on

I lay in the heavens
no one poking me
I can smile with ease
my struggle no longer in my memory

I run with laughter
through the clouds on high
no morning rounds
I have no reason to cry

I play with the angels
soaring through the sky
they promised to take care of you mommy
so I could say good-bye

I'm craddled by the sunshine
it holds me close and dear
mommy I will be okay
it is so peaceful up here

The moon is my keeper
no vitals through the night
I lay with my past loved ones
until the morning light

Mommy dont worry
I dont hurt anymore
I will see you in time
walk through heaven's door

Until then look up high
there is a star shining bright
I'm always in your heart
Mommy, I'll shine on you every night

Believe Me?

Since the day you appeared
I haven't felt regret
I feel even stronger
than the day we met

I can no longer deny
how I feel for you
I know I will lose if I do
there's no point trying to

You are all I think about
all I dream when I lay my head
I swarm myself in you
everything you've ever said

I imagine feeling your heat
until your touch is real
Close my eyes in safety
when I'm wrapped in your feel

You are my destination
your heart is where I want to be
You are all that I'm reaching for
the only love that lay inside of me

In your heart lay my happiness
where my love does belong
I can feel it in my fingertips
you are my love song

My heart stands still without you
your love lets my air still flow
I live and breathe your love
does your heart really know

Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Ty Ty

In the sky there's a star
no matter where you are
I think of you

It shines each and every night
provides all the light
the night clings to

All that sits under the star
no matter how far
we're in the heart of you

So let the light in you shine
we'll never leave you behind
your light shines in us too

| Peg Kay \\ 4/27/2005 |

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Monday, April 25, 2005

Tangled Up In You

Wrapped tight
withen your skin
forget time or moral
we've given in

Slowly place me
on the bed you lay
brush my thigh
burn our body sway

Rush my lip
craddle my face
place your fingertip
in every right place

Force my eyes closed
with passion pushed through
stay in me forever
I'm forever tangled up in you

YES

The night when on
as clouds rolled by
sun had long went down
no excuse for the tears in my eye

Your face rested on mine
time had passed since the last
now I find myself consumed
afraid the time will fade too fast

If I could fall in you forever
I wouldn't fear falling air
I know you would catch me
expose your heart and keep me there

The moon fades
my clutch is tighter
I pretend light of day
isn't getting brighter

Gravity don't force me up
I dont want to go
I want to lay forever
in his beautiful glow

Even steps away
I feel you inside of me
this feeling is real
love meant to be

So Easy Loving You

you light up my life
bring me the smiles
that dont come easy

you take my breath away
make hope part of the day
and that dont come easy

you bring laughter to my soul
giggle until my sides are sore
that dont come so easy

you make my life worth living
make it worth all the giving
making loving you so easy

| Peg Kay \\ 4/25/2005 |

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Saturday, April 23, 2005

I Can Love Again

Lay my head on your chest
I can hear your heart beat
The warmth of your skin
supplies my body heat

Your hand on my back
gives me all the safety I need
Your whisper in my ear
cures my lonely bleed

You tell me it's alright
you'll never again leave
squeeze me tighter
tell me to believe

You kiss my forehead
my eyes close in safety
for this one night
you brought love back to me

Heaven

Sitting on a cloud
looking down at everyone
take a heated seat
to the rise of the sun

Angel breeze whispers
soft smiles at the gate
Colors fill the eye
no breath of hate

Dew drops fall
leaving youth on skin
the pure air flowing
rushes away any pain you're in

The almighty touch
heals through and through
who needs heaven
when there is you

Love Again

My heart pounding
I know you are there
take a step back
there's time to spare

Not too eager
not too shy
take a deep breath
wipe the tear from my eye

Minutes pass
so close now
Have to stay calm
don't know how

The door comes down
a sea of eyes
six long months
without any good-byes

I search
the time has come
happiness overflows
where did this come from

I see your face
you see mine
tears stream
left the anxiety behind

Time hasn't passed
you feel the same
no anger rising
no placing blame

A tearful embrace
arms in tight grip
hanging on for life
no words come from our lip

We touch repeatedly
make sure this is true
believe in your feel
it really is you

Faces red
drowning in tear
nothing but love
erasing worst fear

Not letting go
attached skin to skin
we walk towards
the love we are in

All Night Long

Candle light flames
flicker a soft shadow
no words need spoken
loving whispers flow

A soft kiss
turns into more
a heated touch
clothes fall to the floor

Eye to eye
body heat ablaze
we take the final slither
into our passionate haze

Breathe on our skin
lip to lip
fingernails sink
into clutched grip

We've been here before
the hot sweaty bliss
this time there's more
in our passionate kiss

This time we know
we could lose the next day
wrap me in your body
never let me slip away

| Peg Kay \\ 4/23/2005 |

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Friday, April 22, 2005

Pictures and Wishes

Rose petals on the porch
candle in the breeze
body heat swarming
angels in the trees

All noise deafened
birds singing their tune
stars sparkling hope
cuddles from the moon

Soft whistles
from the wind blow
light radiating
from our facial glow

Worry washed away
soft sprinkle of dew
truth spoken words
I love you

| Peg Kay \\ 4/22/2005 |

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

My Angel Steve
October 5, 2004

I remember the time
we cuddled in the rain
the tears kept falling
you washed away the pain

You pulled out a single rose
caressed it on my cheek
you made my soul forget
it was timid and weak

You whispered I love you
held my hand endlessly
wrapped safety around my heart
brought the sun up just for me

I fell asleep in your arm that night
I knew you wouldn't leave
for the first time in my life
there were words to believe

When the night fell empty
you were no longer there
heaven took you away
grief held my stare

I would lay awake at night
pillows would catch my tear
tried to hear your heartbeat
that used to chase my fear

The night was hollow
not a single sound
no heart pounding
no love to be found

I moved alone
dreaded the days
my eyes were open
but I tripped in haze

I walked forward
there was nothing to find
you weren't near me
but I never left you behind

My heart did beat
though you were gone
but that doesn't mean
that I had moved on

I seen you in the light
your face appeared each day
and when the rain would fall
it was still you taking my pain away

I heard you in thunder strike
it was your roaring laughter
any white picket fence
was our happily ever after

The stars that lit the sky
were you smiling down at me
the moon glow on my face
was the rose you gave to me

I wake up to you
with the rising sun
I lay my head in the moonlight
you are still the only one

*ADDED*

Struggle

some days
it seems worthless
stuck in worry
drowning in the mess

words are weightless
breath has no sound
a face with no name
legs stand no ground

walking in one place
nothing to gain
voice is silent
mute in the pain

effort is overlooked
no reward for trying
what keeps the struggle
from curling up and dying

Will You Drive Home

You walk away
leave me alone to fight
got in your car
and left me that night

made me face days alone
wallowed in my pain
tucked the sun away
only leaving dark clouded rain

Now here you are
I heard you utter my name
so much has changed
so much is the same

Words dont express
all there is to say
trust was lost
the night you drove away

Never Slipping Away

I heard you
when I laid my head
I would pretend
I could feel what you said

I would close my eyes
picture your face
wake up in the morning
with only a tear drop trace

I'd walk through the park
swore I felt your touch
the wind would hit me
breaking our hand clutch

I tried to remember
all you ever said
would replay it daily
to keep words in my head

I stared at your picture
studied your eyes
imagined you looking back at me
deafening my cries

I lived in fantasy
I did what I had to do
held on to whatever I could
so I didn't have to let go of you

| Peg Kay \\ 4/20/2005 |

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Friday, April 15, 2005

Dear Ty Ty

Dearest Tyler
These feelings are for you
Mommy is scared
words are all I have to run to

I'm scared to lose you
Scared I'll forget your cries
lose the picture
of your big beautiful eyes

Fear overwhelms me
will there always be your touch
will I always feel the warmth
from your hand clutch

I want to be able to run to you
pull you against my chest
feel your strong heartbeat
and feel truly blessed

I never want to forget
the smile on your face
I'm not happy with only pictures
taking your place

I dread the what if's
don't want to ask why
I don't want to see your empty bed
while your brothers watch me cry

I want to kiss three boys
as I tuck you into bed
I don't want to pace all night
regretting all that wasn't said

I want to watch you step on to grass
See the wind ruffle your hair
Watch you squint your eyes
as you stand in the sun glare

I want to hug you Tyler
not a stone in a dark cemetery
I'm so scared
Love mommy

| Peg Kay \\ 4/15/2005 |

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